This is Celine


This is her, this is Celine.


Gloomy day, spontaneous outing and an extraordinary friend. 

There are some people you see, find interesting but never think you'd get along with. Life has a funny way to throw you into awkward situations that force you to interact. 

Year 9 maths: 
"She doesn't bite". 
However, Celine wasn't convinced, but also had no other choice but to sit next to me. We had been in each other's company only once before, then too she wasn't too keen. 
Celine an artist, me not-so-much an artist, bonded over our disinterest in maths, drawing together and making up absurd stories. 

Celine is a carefree spirit. Beautiful, talented and caring. Our friendship is something I'd refer to as a 'low maintenance'. We don't see each often, or have too many talks, but when we are in each other's presence, it's unduly natural.         

(Also, recently made another video: BYGONE DAYS)

Process of Introspection

A lots been going on, a lot has happened. 
I've grown, I've learned. 
I've felt, I've been destroyed.
I've loved, I've recovered.
I've found good in the world, in people, in places. 
I've learnt to be with myself. 
I've found what I enjoy doing and I've practiced my passions. 
I've experienced.
I'm happy. 

The past few months have been an absolute roller coaster and regardless of all the shit that's happened, that I would've been better off without, it's helped me grow and realise how much good there still is in the world. 

I've found joy in the littlest of things. 
I've bonded with people I hadn't even known of.
I've seen people and places in a new light. 

Currently my ultimate mood risers: 
1. Listening to upbeat Hindi songs on full volume and dancing the heck out
2. Talking and being in the company of the best people in my life 
3. Slow car drives with all windows down
4. Writing poetry in the spur of the moment and spilling my heart and soul out 
5. Making lil spontaneous and random videos 

Throughout all of this, sitting here right now, thinking back to the times before all this begun, it's just funny to see how things have changed. How life has played out and how this path has been laid and where it's leading to. 

I've never let myself enjoy the good times, in the fear that when the bad times approach again, it'll be harder for me to deal with it. But, it's what's caused me to be so unhappy in the first place. It's what had led me to make those "downs" so much worse for myself, cause then I didn't even have the "ups" to look forward to. 

I don't know what you'd call it, weather it's just progression, realisation or simply just growing up and moving the fuck on, but something has clicked in me recently and I've been floating. 

Thank you to those who've been in my life and taught me more about myself. Thank you to those who still are and provide the best support and company many could only dream of. Thank you to those who've stayed in the background, but always emerged when I've been needy and thank you to myself for letting me enjoy all of this.


For Caitlin, Ali, Seif, Aneesha, Aleena, Ishani, TJ, Nabilah, Celine, my family, and for all those who've always been there for me. 
I cherish all of you so incredibly much and am so very thankful to have you all by my side.
To each one of you; I love you. 

Past


it hasn't been long 
since you left
i still sense your presence 
in every step 

memories of the times
you held my thighs and 
i still feel your eyes on me as i undress 

you appear sometimes at the corner 
but always escaping, before i have the time

i long to once again suffer your love
your hands, around my neck 
my fondness for agony caused by you 

This is Aneesha


This is her, this is Aneesha.

Energetic, carefree and open minded are the first words that pop into my head at the sound of her name. She's the most approachable person I know, and someone who gets along with anyone and everyone. Her extraordinarily large personality can come as a shock to many who've been deceived by her innocent petit figure and shy smile. Her spirit is strong and contagious, and there is not a single second I spend with her where I'm not cheerful or lively. I've always said that one of Aneesha's best qualities is that she's a great listener. She's someone I can just sit down with and rant to, and she'll just be there to listen to it all, and so it happens that she knows me the best. In my 16 years, I've never felt more comfortable in anyone's company. Her accepting mindset makes those around her, feel secure and welcome. There aren't many people in the world like her and that is what makes her so cherishable. 
Makeup: Glorious technicolour. 

In my eyes, Aneesha can only be expressed through a range of colours. She can't be described as something singular because she posses so many qualities and aspects of personality and traits. For her look I used only the brightest of colours, really focussing on the intensity and how much they stand out as I think this is the only way I'd do Aneesha's distinctive identity some justice. The bright colours not only represent her glamour but also her individuality and eccentricity.  Aneesha, I feel is a dare devil and though this look I think that is evidently expressed.  The not-so-usual colours speak for her peculiarity and uniqueness.


As the first day to year 12 approaches, I crave to create. My desire to try out something new heightens, and I regain the confidence I had lost a few months ago. I strive to achieve my ambitions. I tackle down my insecurities and worries and eagerly reach out to those who can help me establish my goals. I've decided to start a new this series on my blog and YouTube with my friends.

Check out the video I made along the blogpost!