I thought

Rewind the short hand 

by a couple million times

Undo the pressure
try not to mind

Trails, not ones walked on
wish to say “I forgot”

No reason
No cause 

But the pleasure is mine,
like always
Oh, of course

‘Superficial’ was said
Over and over, it played 

Was meant to help?
Now, unable to fade

Fast forward the short hand
Now just by a few times

Streams of ruby,
never too many 

Aqua toes
veils the dysmorphic glow

Desires not reality.
In your head,
you've made them your profanity

Just let me loose
Too often now 

in child's pose 

Another pill
 Stained will 

I crave sanity,
never even got to kiss it goodbye.