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nineteen taught me
to love myself
nineteen taught me
that i was stronger than i thought
nineteen taught me
i deserved love
nineteen taught me
 stepping out my comfort zone was easier than i could've ever imagined
nineteen taught me
i am going to be okay in solitude
nineteen taught me
my autonomy
nineteen taught me
 don't need anybody, but its nice to have good people around
nineteen taught me
                           i was more than grateful for all life had given me
nineteen taught me
about myself
nineteen taught me
   to remember not everyday was going to be a bad one
nineteen taught me
not to fear my sexuality
nineteen taught me
i was so capable
nineteen taught me
i could make a change
nineteen taught me
i was in control
nineteen taught me
the good ones will stay
nineteen taught me
true self confidence
nineteen taught me
what happiness was
nineteen taught me
love
nineteen taught me
the extent of my productivity
nineteen taught me
i had a clearer idea of what i want in life
nineteen taught me
i am continue to growing
nineteen taught me
not to make assumptions
nineteen taught me
i can make it
nineteen taught me
i am my own being




nineteen was a lot,
it taught me so much about myself.

i'm really introspective as it is, but in this year of my life i truly saw change in myself, i saw growth, i saw myself evolve.

i gave myself the mantra 'the only thing you can control is how you think about things', and i stuck with that, it helped me and it allowed me to stay in touch with my emotions, it allowed me to have more than my sorrow to focus on.

i'm scared to go into my 20s,
i'm scared to age,
not just because of the societal values of women and its deterioration with time,
but because with every year i have less time and more responsibilities and expectations,
i do not fear either of the them,
i fear failure but nineteen taught me i was stronger than eighteen
when i didn't even think that was possible

i can only hope and rely on myself that 20 kicks nineteen's ass..

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